May 20 2009
So very unimpressed!
Right, I have just spent god knows how long writing a post that I have to say, was one of my best, and the bloody laptop just died on me and it hasn’t saved
I shall try and recreate some of the magic that just flew out of my finger tips but I hold no hope!
So first and foremost i feel that is most important to apologise to shannonf’s husband. I had no intention of angering you or hurting your feelings. I understand how i may have done so, but believe me when I say this, you have the greatest gift in the entire universe and no dyke on a short-sighted public rant (myself) should make you feel bad. I am truly sorry. This goes for anyone else i may have insulted. You see my problem is i tend to type before I think, an incredibly bad habit that i am trying my hardest to shake.
Like I said, I see now that my rant was a little short-sighted. I did not at the time of writing even consider other peoples feelings on this matter. I understand that the media cannot cater for all needs, that it is bound to upset a few along the way, but i do feel that there is room for improvement. Maybe allowing a few LGBT adverts to creep onto our screens instead of just hushing them up till they find themselves on youtube would placate a little. The idea about the school forms is genius if I say so myself!
Now how about something a little less controversial hmm? The appalling state of Britain’s Finest politicians morals maybe? Stick them all on state benefits for 6 months I reckon, they all sit on their arses and do jack sh*t anyway! (typing before I think somewhat applies here, but then again, it is my opinion)
Wanting a bit of news on the baby front? I am afraid that it just is not happening. Not biological, through choice (if you can call it that.) Me and Kirst have been forced to put it all on hold till our donor gets his act together. When you make a promise to eat right, to stop drinking yourself into an early grave, taking our dreams with you, you generally uphold that promise right? well in our case wrong! We don’t want to give up on our donor just yet but I for one am getting sick of the lack of commitment. If he didnt have a problem with alcohol then why on earth is he unable to stop drinking, lying about drinking and everything that generally goes along with being an alcoholic. As a friend, I am not going to let him kill himself with this most obvious denial, but as a person who needs a part of him to continue with her and her partners dream which he is blatently disregarding because of “boredom,” I am finding it harder to persuade myself to keep positive.
So, how did I do? Another little bit of information for you. It’s our first wedding anniversary in 4 days :-D.







its been awhile since you posted I was starting to wonder what happened to you., I type before I think too often too which can sometimes lead to confusion about the actual message I am trying to get across…. I did actually understand where you were coming from though.
Oh congrats on the anniversary…. happy anniversary to both of you… sorry to hear things are not going well on the baby front we will keep you guys in our prayers….
Its really awful that your donor wont get his act together, that promise is much to important to blow off, he is being very selfish, hopefully he will get his act together soon.
Congrats on the approaching anniversary!
It sounds like you should cut this donor and look for another, If you and your wife really want a baby then why wait around for someone who sounds unreliable and uncommited, and doesnt appear to have great sperm!
Is this man going to be apart of the childs life once it is born?
Also do you really want a baby fathered by an unmotivated alcoholic?Yes most things in a babys life are established by upbringing and nuture but genetics play apart too. If it was me I would want to give my child the best chance possible, starting with the sperm donor.
Sorry for my candid remarks,
J