LezWife

Tomorrow hopefully is the start of us trying again. I have been half joking to to the wife about intensive baby making army mission style. So fingers crossed it works this time. We can’t deal with any more bad luck. The miscarriage knocked us both for six.

We have been fighting a lot recently, both of us are under a lot of stress. I may have not been there for her as much as i should have. I put up a few walls and went on the defensive as she has been distant from me and well to put it bluntly I didn’t think she had any love for me anymore. After a few very explosive arguments and a few mistakes we have finally - i hope sorted it out. I won’t go into too much detail as i would be here forever, plus we decided to try and forget all the bad stuff that has been happening. It all came to a head when i handed her my wedding ring on friday.

Yes it got that bad.

Yes I have it back on my finger now.

No it’s not coming off again.

Yes I regret it more than anything i have ever done.

Now back to the baby making. We plan to try every day for the next few weeks. Not just when she is ovulating. We figure this will give us a much better chance.

Now i know what your all thinking. Why on earth are we trying for a baby when things are so rocky? To tell you the truth, Things are not that rocky in the usual sense. They are rocky, Yes, But in a we need to stop taking out our hurt on each other way. The misscariage, Kirsty’s nan dying, and the whole thing with her family (i am not prepared to get into it, but she has disowned them.) Havc all been taken out on each other. We have talked and now were pretty good. We have both vowed to not take each other for granted, for both of us not to fly off the handle all the time. Plus a few other things.

One of those other things is to have a bit of fun, we are young! So tonight we are going out. Cinema? Dinner? who the hell cares! We are young and in love.

Nothing can keep us down now!